challenging play, " Honour ", in which I
performed the title role, closed recently ; yet
" honour " defined as integrity continues to
play a central role in my life. In addition to
being an actress, I am also a visual artist. My
best and hardest choices have been oriented
toward this lodestone of being a person of
I'm 54 now. The way
that honour becomes a verb in my life and in my
painting has evolved and matured. For one thing,
I've lightened up a whole lot. I am far more
willing to embrace complexity. Feeling can pull
in opposite directions. When I take this dance
to the canvas opposing tensions reveal unity. I
recognize the unique truth embedded in paradox.
A bolder palette with
contrasting hot and cool colors speaks for who I
am now. I don't define myself by loyalty to a
particular form or style. Of the paintings shown
here, the most realistic depicts a dream like
scene. The others are abstract or
impressionistic or hover at a point between.
Where does the creative
impulse reside? As I mature, painting is
becoming like acting--an embodied experience.
It's inside me but there is also a call and
response with some mysterious region of spirit.
Sure there will always be a jet of anxiety when
facing a blank stage or a blank canvas. But
there is also trust.
I make my home on the
watershed of the Albion River with my beloved
husband, Steve. I belong to this community and
this slice of coast. The security of these deep
blessings free energy I never had when I was
struggling with issues of love and survival. I
care more than ever about what is happening to
others in America and in the World.
I paint my conflicting
feelings about 9-11. I also paint the play of
light in my garden. As a person I don't have to
be " spiritual " or " sexual ". As an artist I
don't have to be " serious " or " marketable ".
It's not either / or but both / and....
These paintings, done
in acrylic and oil pastels, represent " honour "
defined as "respect" ------- respect for
mystery, for the ever changing patterns of life
and for the life within